New Year is Upon Us

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You know, Everyday I sketch, an everyday I look down at it in a slight confusion. I don't know if I am really getting better in this past month. It makes me sad, to be honest. Sorta like I wasted my childhood on, well... Video games. There are so many artists here that are much younger than me; Like sixteen and seventeen, and they already have so much more talent. I'm almost nineteen, and still am sitting where I am. It really brings me down, I have to admit. Of course I'll get better, and I'll be good one day; But at that point, I dunno. I feel I'll be still left behind and in the dust with the main stream skill level. The level that makes you not just good, but great, you know?

I mean, sure. Some people will say, "I can't even draw what you do, STFU!" but still. I've been left in the dust in almost everything I do by friends, and even with art I am. I don't wanna be just as good as my friends; I wanna be 'Great', to where my ma won't just say, "Oh, nice" and I can make those really close to me sorta, well, proud or excited to see my art. Something I could do that'd make me more so unique. I can't say I really am to many of my friends, and I'd mean a lot if I could.

I guess this could sorta be seen as something juvenile, but it's me being honest on what I want, and how I feel. I'm still working harder every day, if not, every other day, to be better with my art. I might not have my dream of being able to have a comic started before I am 20 that I can say was 'A life work' cause you can't get everything you want in life. But I'm still working to do my damnest to be the best I can be.

My new year's resolution is to be a bit more open with my feelings, take a bit more hold of my life, and make sure I give myself and my art the best chance at a great future.

Too all those that read this, thanks for listening to my rant, and I'm sorry I don't have any festive art for you. I hope that at the end of 2012, that I can succeed in making jaw dropping art. Thanks for reading.
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